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I was having a fairly good night until I went out to my car to get my phone and hang out with interesting playful male who made me amused. There was a missed call from my birth father on my phone.

My Father never calls me. In fact the last time I spoke to him on the phone was Father's day. That is not to say we haven't kept in touch, it's what Facebook is for usually but when I got my new phone I had two of his numbers in my phone old phone and thanks to a glitch it refused to let me add either of them to mine and I completely forgot to ask him about so he and I could start back to talking and getting to know each other.

Let me further clarify in stating that my Father had not seen me for 23 years until this year. In fact he had almost given up finding me a few years back until he found my mom. Because I use my online moniker for everything people who know me outside of family would look for that versus my real name.

I had been worried in either case because like I said - A.) He never calls me and B.) I had noticed over the weekend he had posted about being in the hospital again. He has some major health issues because of stupid shit he did to himself (The main reason why he dropped off the face of the earth was because of Coke, and not the drinking kind). So I immediately called him back on my way back to Saucer from my car.

The conversation had started out mundane enough, and I in all my optimistic attitude missed a memo somewhere.

"So you know I won't be able to see you again, right?"

"Well yeah,"

"What? How'd you know?"

I wish I could see you sooner like we'd talked about, but you are going to the…the…" insert pondering moment "Phillipines right to see your girlfriend?"

"No, because I only have 3-6 months to live according to the doctor."

Stunned silence. This was the man who I had obviously inherited a lot of my personality and had just started to get to know again telling me that he was going to die. The rest of the conversation was practically a blur by that point. I know he told me he loved me, and that he was at least happy to see me once. He told me that I shouldn't let anyone change me and that he knows I'm always against the world, and that's a good thing because I'm being me.

He also told me I'm one of the last people to know. He didn't tell me what he was sick with, only that it wasn't cancer and since he'd been in the hospital he'd been sleeping for 20 hour stints and he had yet to be vertical since he got in and that his main goal was to get that way. One day at a time.

And that is what I have to do, take it one step at a time. I looked up today what he had originally said on Facebook. What I had originally thought had been a typo for FML is actually far more. FMLA = Family and Medical Leave Act.

This burns me in more ways I can really say. I want to do a rewind button and had made the effort to see him more, to not have made our first meeting like it was and the basis for it. He had offered before but then I was awkward and we had just started talking then.

I'm just tired of crashing. When do things really get better?
  • Listening to: Beautiful - Eminem
  • Watching: Once Upon a Time
  • Playing: Alice: Madness Returns

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Takoda Vega
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United States
Favourite genre of music: Gothic Metal
Favourite photographer: Deceased Grampa, Me, Geno, Steve Campbell ^.^
Favourite style of art: hmm...toughy.....uh....I plead the 5th?
Operating System: Windows XP
MP3 player of choice: Sansa <3
Wallpaper of choice: Loriens!! They wicked ^^
Favourite cartoon character: Bugs Bunny *nibbles on carrot* Eh, wazzup doc?
Personal Quote: Do not Doubt. Doubt will kill you.
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